For a long time, I thought a narcissist had just hurt me—emotionally drained me, made me question my worth, and left me feeling completely exhausted. But as I look back, I realize that the narcissist in my life wasn't just a source of pain. They were a mirror, reflecting the parts of me where I hadn’t set boundaries, where I hadn't learned to love myself enough. In their own twisted way, they pushed me until I couldn’t take it anymore, and in doing so, they taught me the most important lesson of all: how to protect myself.

When I first encountered narcissistic behavior, I didn’t immediately recognize it for what it was. I saw the red flags—the manipulation, the control, the constant need for validation—but I ignored them. I tolerated the lies, the gaslighting, the selfishness. Why? Because I wasn’t protecting myself. I hadn’t yet learned the power of setting boundaries. Instead, I believed that if I was just more understanding, more patient, or more giving, things would change. Spoiler alert: they didn’t.

For a while, I tolerated it all—until one day, I just couldn’t anymore. The weight of constantly walking on eggshells, of bending over backward to avoid conflict, of sacrificing my peace for someone who wouldn’t do the same for me—it broke me. But in that breaking, I found something I hadn’t realized was missing: my self-respect.

The truth is, a narcissist thrives where there are no boundaries. They flourish in environments where people-pleasing and self-sacrifice are the norm because it allows them to take and take, without ever giving back. But this isn’t just about their behavior; it’s about the space we leave unprotected—the parts of us where we haven’t yet built up our self-love or set clear boundaries.

In my case, the narcissist didn’t just hurt me—they showed me exactly where I needed to grow. They highlighted the places where I hadn’t been loving myself enough to say "no," to demand more, to walk away. They pushed me to the point where the only option left was to finally choose myself.

When I finally did, everything changed.

I realized that the love I had been waiting for from someone else was something I needed to give to myself first. I realized that boundaries aren’t just about keeping people out; they’re about protecting the things that matter most to you—your peace, your joy, your worth. And once I learned to set those boundaries, the narcissist lost their power over me. They couldn’t push me anymore because I no longer allowed it.

So, yes—being involved with a narcissist was painful. It drained me, broke me, and left me feeling empty. But it also showed me the parts of myself that needed the most care and attention. It forced me to confront the fact that I had been neglecting my own needs for too long, and it pushed me to start loving myself in ways I never had before.

If you’re dealing with a narcissist, know that their actions say more about them than they do about you. But also know this: their behavior is showing you where you need to set boundaries, where you need to practice self-love, and where you need to stand up for yourself. Don’t wait until you’re completely exhausted like I did—start building those boundaries now, and watch how your life begins to shift.

You deserve better. And sometimes, it takes a narcissist to show you that.

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